BYEE. ahhahahaha.
Okay, just met brother fetch him from downstairs eh.
going down meeting the shaykh and fee later ahh, take things. leceh man.
Gua sleepy. huaha.
okok dah dah dah bye lah!
alamak.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
BYEE. ahhahahaha.
Okay, just met brother fetch him from downstairs eh.
going down meeting the shaykh and fee later ahh, take things. leceh man.
Gua sleepy. huaha.
okok dah dah dah bye lah!
alamak.
Shoes lying all over the floor. Bags here and there. Bed filled with clothes I don't wish to bring. Ah, I knew I should have pack yesterday. And i actually thought if I were to pack tomorrow morning, I still can make it. Ah, I'm wrong.
Thanks to all these I can't tag along with my sister or my friends to see my brother. He asked me to come and watch him but thanks ahh Perth Trip, I missed the performance. Never mind. Not big a deal anyway.
Texted my section mates telling them not to forget anything and guess what?
Valerie have yet pack a single thing.
And she seems very relax and I'm like panicking for her. Wah.
Texted that HQ and he don't freaking understand my instructions.
Rushed off to fetch my cousin from religious class at Marsiling at 6pm just now.
Bus-ed back to causeway Point and back home. Tiring. Bump into Dewi & Q on the way back.
I think I'm going Perth penniless. My parents have yet change the money to Aus dollars. Wah, they always last minute. That, piss me off. Still hoping dad will send me to the Airport.
Tomorrow is the 30th right? Right.
That would be the 20th month of Friendship of Arif and I. I don't know if I should wish him or not cause, I don't feel like anymore. I mean, it's not really friendship I meant. Since I've stop waiting and stuff, shouldn't be counting the days and months anymore. Yeah.
I feel that I'm much more excited when I left for Genting with the Band last year rather than this year's trip to Perth. I don't feel happy to the extent that I can't sleep. That was how I felt for Genting, not so for Perth.
Mom somehow cursed me before she left just now.
" kau tak sembayang, besok besok kene soal aku tak tau "
She said if I don't pray, the day after tomorrow I will die and I will suffer & she don't care.
I tried to maintain and said, " the day after tmr? haha, still at perth la dey. "
Momma, I won't die in two days time okay. what the hell.
Dear juniors of my clarinet section, please practice hard while we are not around and please learn the Overture No. 1 okaay. I'll come back and test all of you. Please work hard for Syf and all the upcoming programmes! You all are already a senior and going to be one for the Secondary ones! please work on your standards okay. I love you all. Practice ahhhhh! I may not be in Singapore but I will know what you all doing. Got spy. Kay fake.
PRACTICE AH!
TWO S-ES.
WILL MISS YOU TWO.
WILL MISS THE OTHER EVEN MORE.
AHHHH.
Thanks to all these I can't tag along with my sister or my friends to see my brother. He asked me to come and watch him but thanks ahh Perth Trip, I missed the performance. Never mind. Not big a deal anyway.
Texted my section mates telling them not to forget anything and guess what?
Valerie have yet pack a single thing.
And she seems very relax and I'm like panicking for her. Wah.
Texted that HQ and he don't freaking understand my instructions.
Rushed off to fetch my cousin from religious class at Marsiling at 6pm just now.
Bus-ed back to causeway Point and back home. Tiring. Bump into Dewi & Q on the way back.
I think I'm going Perth penniless. My parents have yet change the money to Aus dollars. Wah, they always last minute. That, piss me off. Still hoping dad will send me to the Airport.
Tomorrow is the 30th right? Right.
That would be the 20th month of Friendship of Arif and I. I don't know if I should wish him or not cause, I don't feel like anymore. I mean, it's not really friendship I meant. Since I've stop waiting and stuff, shouldn't be counting the days and months anymore. Yeah.
I feel that I'm much more excited when I left for Genting with the Band last year rather than this year's trip to Perth. I don't feel happy to the extent that I can't sleep. That was how I felt for Genting, not so for Perth.
Mom somehow cursed me before she left just now.
" kau tak sembayang, besok besok kene soal aku tak tau "
She said if I don't pray, the day after tomorrow I will die and I will suffer & she don't care.
I tried to maintain and said, " the day after tmr? haha, still at perth la dey. "
Momma, I won't die in two days time okay. what the hell.
Dear juniors of my clarinet section, please practice hard while we are not around and please learn the Overture No. 1 okaay. I'll come back and test all of you. Please work hard for Syf and all the upcoming programmes! You all are already a senior and going to be one for the Secondary ones! please work on your standards okay. I love you all. Practice ahhhhh! I may not be in Singapore but I will know what you all doing. Got spy. Kay fake.
PRACTICE AH!
TWO S-ES.
WILL MISS YOU TWO.
WILL MISS THE OTHER EVEN MORE.
AHHHH.
Happy Birthday Sya.
Ah, I'm just kidding, who the hell is Sya maaan.
Alright.
I've got nothing to say but uhm,
I'M GOING PERTH TOMORROW! COOL OR WHAT?
ehem.
Don't ask for any Aussie stuff or emails or chicks & dudes cause I won't entertain you people. I'll keep the good stuff for myself. Ah, fake lah. Well, I'll try to get stuff for those who asked already.
Insyallah.
How irritating Father can get? Very.
Dad: besok kau gi pukol brape?
Irah: maalaaaam ahhh. dah ckp byk kali kaan.
Dad: yer la pukol braper?
Irah: spuloh malam. dah.
Dad: dah ah, kau gi sendiri.
Irah: ehh, janji nak hantar perr. aper ni?
Dad: ader school bus kan.
Sad you know. Cheat my feelings man.
& passerbys sucks eh sometimes, no life man.
Ah, I'm just kidding, who the hell is Sya maaan.
Alright.
I've got nothing to say but uhm,
I'M GOING PERTH TOMORROW! COOL OR WHAT?
ehem.
Don't ask for any Aussie stuff or emails or chicks & dudes cause I won't entertain you people. I'll keep the good stuff for myself. Ah, fake lah. Well, I'll try to get stuff for those who asked already.
Insyallah.
How irritating Father can get? Very.
Dad: besok kau gi pukol brape?
Irah: maalaaaam ahhh. dah ckp byk kali kaan.
Dad: yer la pukol braper?
Irah: spuloh malam. dah.
Dad: dah ah, kau gi sendiri.
Irah: ehh, janji nak hantar perr. aper ni?
Dad: ader school bus kan.
Sad you know. Cheat my feelings man.
& passerbys sucks eh sometimes, no life man.
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Shaykh and I chatted for quite long, today. From talking about crushes respectively and then to qoute-ing sentences from P Ramlee's Movies and to playing with someone's MSN Account. And I have to re add and delete and it goes on. Right Shaykh?
He lives just a multi Storey Carpark away yet I've never bump into him before, never. The shop he always go to is the shop which is right under my room and yet I've never see him around.
It's Saturday night isn't it? It's gonna be Sunday!
Shaykh help me, at least I wanna have a conversation with him before I fly off.
Tolong aku okay. huaha.
Wah in love kepe irah. Nah.
Bubble-wrapped my instrument in school just now. Before that, spent like hell alot of time spraying my hair black for school. Ah, I hate the guards and OM Lee. Yesterday I was told to get my hair done and come back to school. Obviously I got pissed off. I made the guard feel very damn guilty. I did. So today despite having certain parts of my hair unsprayed, he let me in and told me to just stay at level Three.
TAU TAKOT. hahahaha.
Geram you know, I sabar only.
When to Horizon to have lunch with my friends. Waited for Shawal to collect his stuff from me. Then went home since I'm like tired. Slept till 8pm. Shiok.
Confession made, now it's easier maaaan.
Well didn't confess to the person itself.
You think I dare? No.
Okay tired.
Help me pack my luggage okay. thanks.
He lives just a multi Storey Carpark away yet I've never bump into him before, never. The shop he always go to is the shop which is right under my room and yet I've never see him around.
It's Saturday night isn't it? It's gonna be Sunday!
Shaykh help me, at least I wanna have a conversation with him before I fly off.
Tolong aku okay. huaha.
Wah in love kepe irah. Nah.
Bubble-wrapped my instrument in school just now. Before that, spent like hell alot of time spraying my hair black for school. Ah, I hate the guards and OM Lee. Yesterday I was told to get my hair done and come back to school. Obviously I got pissed off. I made the guard feel very damn guilty. I did. So today despite having certain parts of my hair unsprayed, he let me in and told me to just stay at level Three.
TAU TAKOT. hahahaha.
Geram you know, I sabar only.
When to Horizon to have lunch with my friends. Waited for Shawal to collect his stuff from me. Then went home since I'm like tired. Slept till 8pm. Shiok.
Confession made, now it's easier maaaan.
Well didn't confess to the person itself.
You think I dare? No.
Okay tired.
Help me pack my luggage okay. thanks.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Actually, there's no point loving someone who you can't be with. Let me correct myself here. Actually, there's no point loving someone who I can't be with. Cause every time I fall for someone, I get nothing. Well not really nothing. I do get the unwanted heart breaks and such.
Ah, I sound like one pathetic sadist bitch but who cares. I've been having this thoughts running in my mind. I've been wondering why, why I get such luck. Ah, I hate this lah.
I dare say that I won't be falling in love for now. Well apparently just now, there's this person who caught my eye. Yah, sound very yuck-ish right? But heck, he really do look nice. He reminds me of someone and ugh, the feeling just suck alright. Well at least I know his name and yeah, just a friendly wave. That's all.
I told my best friend about it & I'm sure she understands. Cause when she look at that person, she understand why I'm feeling this way. Ah, what the hell Irah. Freaking lame.
Okay, woke up around 10am and had my breakfast. Called and texted many people to planned stuff. Didn't inform mom about Shopping at Bugis so didn't tag along. I don't want mom to scold me when I come home late. So decided to call Nana to swim at her place. But cancelled cause Nadiah can't make it. Ah, called up my cousin ask her accompany me to Causeway but she's down with fever. Fee had plans then she decided to combined it. So yeah, met her friends.
Shopped for my toiletries and such. Bought quite a number of stuff and I'm almost broke. Almost. Haha. Was tired so didn't stay long since the guys already left. Left Shaykh and Fee. Passed by home and decided to skip slacking. Should have tag along to Bugis cause mom is not home yet. Always like this man. Ah.
I used to wear on two Friendship bands but after much thinking, I decided to sink one into my Chicken Rice's Soup earlier on. So yeap, I'm just wearing one now. I don't think I mean anything to you already after that thing. Ah. Hope you understand.
It seems like I'm gonna fall sick. Headache have been acting up and ugh flu for days! Nb. Don't wish to be sick for the trip. AIYAYAYAYA.
Bought Lingerie. Mom gonna blast cause it's quite expensive and I wanna get more of it (:
Chill Mommy, chill.
Ah, I sound like one pathetic sadist bitch but who cares. I've been having this thoughts running in my mind. I've been wondering why, why I get such luck. Ah, I hate this lah.
I dare say that I won't be falling in love for now. Well apparently just now, there's this person who caught my eye. Yah, sound very yuck-ish right? But heck, he really do look nice. He reminds me of someone and ugh, the feeling just suck alright. Well at least I know his name and yeah, just a friendly wave. That's all.
I told my best friend about it & I'm sure she understands. Cause when she look at that person, she understand why I'm feeling this way. Ah, what the hell Irah. Freaking lame.
Okay, woke up around 10am and had my breakfast. Called and texted many people to planned stuff. Didn't inform mom about Shopping at Bugis so didn't tag along. I don't want mom to scold me when I come home late. So decided to call Nana to swim at her place. But cancelled cause Nadiah can't make it. Ah, called up my cousin ask her accompany me to Causeway but she's down with fever. Fee had plans then she decided to combined it. So yeah, met her friends.
Shopped for my toiletries and such. Bought quite a number of stuff and I'm almost broke. Almost. Haha. Was tired so didn't stay long since the guys already left. Left Shaykh and Fee. Passed by home and decided to skip slacking. Should have tag along to Bugis cause mom is not home yet. Always like this man. Ah.
I used to wear on two Friendship bands but after much thinking, I decided to sink one into my Chicken Rice's Soup earlier on. So yeap, I'm just wearing one now. I don't think I mean anything to you already after that thing. Ah. Hope you understand.
It seems like I'm gonna fall sick. Headache have been acting up and ugh flu for days! Nb. Don't wish to be sick for the trip. AIYAYAYAYA.
Bought Lingerie. Mom gonna blast cause it's quite expensive and I wanna get more of it (:
Chill Mommy, chill.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Hello darlings.
Ah, few more days before flying off to Perth.
I'm starting to like this trip even more cause my friends suddenly just called, msn, sms and stuff saying that they miss me alot and wanna meet up before I fly off. Well, it's not like I'm going away for years right? It's funny.
Maybe Nadiah and Fee sending me off at the Airport. (:
Nothing much to say except that I'm doing well and sleeping well since my sister is away at Hong
Kong so no disturbance at night with the lights on and noises. yipee.
Nadiah called me and we chatted till my prepaid almost low, $1.80.
YAY?
ugh. haha
but she cracked me up with the most funniest joke.
Silas kena already. nyaha.
I'm happy.
yay.
Yesterday had band. Same stuff.
Left school 2 plus and headed to causeway point.
We had long lunch and proceed with the shopping.
I felt sinful as I kept on hurting people's leg and body and yeah, also making them wait for me go shop to shop and slowly think what and which to get. Ah, i suck.
Bought some food and bubble tea.
Slacked inside Pasar Malam.
Reache home almost 9am.
Bam into bed around 11pm and woke up friggin late today.
Ah, perth I can't wait.
Ah, few more days before flying off to Perth.
I'm starting to like this trip even more cause my friends suddenly just called, msn, sms and stuff saying that they miss me alot and wanna meet up before I fly off. Well, it's not like I'm going away for years right? It's funny.
Maybe Nadiah and Fee sending me off at the Airport. (:
Nothing much to say except that I'm doing well and sleeping well since my sister is away at Hong
Kong so no disturbance at night with the lights on and noises. yipee.
Nadiah called me and we chatted till my prepaid almost low, $1.80.
YAY?
ugh. haha
but she cracked me up with the most funniest joke.
Silas kena already. nyaha.
I'm happy.
yay.
Yesterday had band. Same stuff.
Left school 2 plus and headed to causeway point.
We had long lunch and proceed with the shopping.
I felt sinful as I kept on hurting people's leg and body and yeah, also making them wait for me go shop to shop and slowly think what and which to get. Ah, i suck.
Bought some food and bubble tea.
Slacked inside Pasar Malam.
Reache home almost 9am.
Bam into bed around 11pm and woke up friggin late today.
Ah, perth I can't wait.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
I thought I wouldn't have the chance to use the laptop but hey, I'm here! again..
Have you ever tell yourself that you will stop wanting to be in relationship & actually quit on guys and focus more on your forte? As for me, music. Yes, I've made up my mind a few days ago which explains why I've deleted those featured guys on my friendster account & also the photo album of goingcrazyonArif. Yeah, that sand picture on my friendster profile?; taken out.
I feel much better knowing that I've got the strength to give up Arif and those guys I've been in love with which I never get to be with. Seriously, in my life, there's these 4 guys I fall for at different times. None were happiness. In fact, it was all heart pain & regrets.
But I guess I've cheated myself and embarrassed myself for texting Arif yesterday night. Thankfully, he replied at 3am. Then, he didn't reply my text message at 9am. Sad huh? Maybe you don't understand but uhm, oh never mind. I didn't expect any replies from him actually, it was a test. After a few weeks of not texting, he replied me. I don't think I'm wishing Arif Happy 20th Months of Friendship on the 30th, as planned.
And after embarrassing myself on MSN, I've told myself never chat with Silas for now. Don't get in contact with him for now. But heck, he went online & chatted with me. Well, I tried to be sarcastic by asking him why he chat with me when he is always busy and stuff. Ah, maybe they have no intention but let me say this,
WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS? I MEAN, WHEN I'M ACTUALLY DOING WELL WITHOUT THEM, WHY ARE THEY COMING BACK? EVEN " N " ASK ME ABOUT MY TRIP JUST NOW.IT KEEPS COMING BACK & I'M WANTING MORE. BUT I DON'T.
Okay CRAP MAN, IRAH, STOP IT.
I told Nadiah that I gave up. I don't want to be involve in these shits I've been thru all this while. And her reply made me laugh; " Irah don't be like this okay. I'm not going to love you irah. I'm not a lesbian! Please Irah "
Nad, you don't need to be a lesbian and love me. You can love me like you love me now. Haha. And why talk about lesbian? That just disgusts me alright.
Ah, I miss alot of people.
& Yuza, I know after sending you that text message, it actually jeopardize our friendship. well, you asked for it. Ah, see now things are awkward between us. GREAT.
Have you ever tell yourself that you will stop wanting to be in relationship & actually quit on guys and focus more on your forte? As for me, music. Yes, I've made up my mind a few days ago which explains why I've deleted those featured guys on my friendster account & also the photo album of goingcrazyonArif. Yeah, that sand picture on my friendster profile?; taken out.
I feel much better knowing that I've got the strength to give up Arif and those guys I've been in love with which I never get to be with. Seriously, in my life, there's these 4 guys I fall for at different times. None were happiness. In fact, it was all heart pain & regrets.
But I guess I've cheated myself and embarrassed myself for texting Arif yesterday night. Thankfully, he replied at 3am. Then, he didn't reply my text message at 9am. Sad huh? Maybe you don't understand but uhm, oh never mind. I didn't expect any replies from him actually, it was a test. After a few weeks of not texting, he replied me. I don't think I'm wishing Arif Happy 20th Months of Friendship on the 30th, as planned.
And after embarrassing myself on MSN, I've told myself never chat with Silas for now. Don't get in contact with him for now. But heck, he went online & chatted with me. Well, I tried to be sarcastic by asking him why he chat with me when he is always busy and stuff. Ah, maybe they have no intention but let me say this,
WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS? I MEAN, WHEN I'M ACTUALLY DOING WELL WITHOUT THEM, WHY ARE THEY COMING BACK? EVEN " N " ASK ME ABOUT MY TRIP JUST NOW.IT KEEPS COMING BACK & I'M WANTING MORE. BUT I DON'T.
Okay CRAP MAN, IRAH, STOP IT.
I told Nadiah that I gave up. I don't want to be involve in these shits I've been thru all this while. And her reply made me laugh; " Irah don't be like this okay. I'm not going to love you irah. I'm not a lesbian! Please Irah "
Nad, you don't need to be a lesbian and love me. You can love me like you love me now. Haha. And why talk about lesbian? That just disgusts me alright.
Ah, I miss alot of people.
& Yuza, I know after sending you that text message, it actually jeopardize our friendship. well, you asked for it. Ah, see now things are awkward between us. GREAT.
I officially hate my hair.
The colour now just suck.
From Purple to Red & now to BROWN.
How minah can that be? very.
Was planning to have it purple again maybe before Perth or after Perth. Ah, brown hair just bothers me alot!
Oh yeah,
Perth Trip! 8 more days.
Caaaaaaaaaan't waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaait!
The colour now just suck.
From Purple to Red & now to BROWN.
How minah can that be? very.
Was planning to have it purple again maybe before Perth or after Perth. Ah, brown hair just bothers me alot!
Oh yeah,
Perth Trip! 8 more days.
Caaaaaaaaaan't waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaait!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Perth Trip is drawing nearer & nearer! & the excitment is getting wild! & the pressure to perform well is indeed pressurizing. But thanked god the 29 of us are able to strive hard (:
2 more practices & there, we're all ready to fly there (: Ah, shiok ah. hahaha.
Yesterday, while I'm conducting sectionals, my handphone vibrated on the chair. I ignored the call I received and continue conducting sectionals. Chiu Hwa made me stop for awhile and I take a look at who's calling me. Guess who?
Arif.
Nur Arif Bin Abdul Rahman.
Ya, that guy. ya ya ya ya.
Shocked. Panicked.
I didn't want to answer but peer pressure! My peers told me to answer cause it's like a once in a life time thing to receive a call from Arif. So yeah, I answered. It was nothing actually. Apparently, I called him by accident. I guess I sat on my handphone and it navigates to his name & his name is the first contact in my list. So yeah. So for quite awhile I went on saying " I didn't ".
Cause I thought I didn't called him. Aii.
He broke the chain! Maybe I did. It's almost a month that we didn't contact and I'm very good. I don't really miss him nor think of him. Ah, shouldn't have answered the call man! Aiya.
Nevermind. He could sms but he chose to call.
Lunch was hillarious. Walked in the rain and got all drenched, as a section. Tried to dry ourselves up especially our shoes & socks but failed. So, almost everyone were bare footed during combined. Fun. HAHA.
2 more practices & there, we're all ready to fly there (: Ah, shiok ah. hahaha.
Yesterday, while I'm conducting sectionals, my handphone vibrated on the chair. I ignored the call I received and continue conducting sectionals. Chiu Hwa made me stop for awhile and I take a look at who's calling me. Guess who?
Arif.
Nur Arif Bin Abdul Rahman.
Ya, that guy. ya ya ya ya.
Shocked. Panicked.
I didn't want to answer but peer pressure! My peers told me to answer cause it's like a once in a life time thing to receive a call from Arif. So yeah, I answered. It was nothing actually. Apparently, I called him by accident. I guess I sat on my handphone and it navigates to his name & his name is the first contact in my list. So yeah. So for quite awhile I went on saying " I didn't ".
Cause I thought I didn't called him. Aii.
He broke the chain! Maybe I did. It's almost a month that we didn't contact and I'm very good. I don't really miss him nor think of him. Ah, shouldn't have answered the call man! Aiya.
Nevermind. He could sms but he chose to call.
Lunch was hillarious. Walked in the rain and got all drenched, as a section. Tried to dry ourselves up especially our shoes & socks but failed. So, almost everyone were bare footed during combined. Fun. HAHA.
okay, fuck tagged. why you added me?
I hate those photos. done. bye. :(
relinks, some other days yeah
Sunday, November 16, 2008
I feel sad for my good friend from Religious class who hopelessly fell in love with our male teacher. Nothing sad about it right? Not yet. Apparently, he just got married around 3 weeks ago. Imagine that face she puts on when she found out just now. Nono, not sad but funny!
Nur Amalina Jumat! The good friend. Funny friend. & she's weird today. Ah, I'll miss Religious class, I'll miss her cause mom might be transferring me to Teens Alive session since I don't wanna sit for PSLE next year. C'mon, enough pressure from the upcoming N Level. So Amalina, persuade your mom to transfer you to Teens Alive alright! Haha.
Alright, started of the entry with sucha lame story. Actually, there's nothing much to talk about. Nothing much to update since Friendster has been the biggest bitch since it went under maintenance. People keep saying that they will want to delete their accounts if this continues.
Ah shit, need to off.
Nur Amalina Jumat! The good friend. Funny friend. & she's weird today. Ah, I'll miss Religious class, I'll miss her cause mom might be transferring me to Teens Alive session since I don't wanna sit for PSLE next year. C'mon, enough pressure from the upcoming N Level. So Amalina, persuade your mom to transfer you to Teens Alive alright! Haha.
Alright, started of the entry with sucha lame story. Actually, there's nothing much to talk about. Nothing much to update since Friendster has been the biggest bitch since it went under maintenance. People keep saying that they will want to delete their accounts if this continues.
Ah shit, need to off.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Zero Hour: Massacre at Columbine.
Type that and watch the documentary and I assure you, you will be scared to go to school. Seriously, it's very very saddening to see students get shot by 2 students. Sick minds. Not use elaborating here. Watch in at youtube. Cool, heartbreaking, sad & scary.
Somehow, this makes me feel very scared to go Perth you know. I don't know why. I don't wanna die. Oh my gosd. Thanks to Afee for giving me the link. Scary lah.
Mom was suppose to go for the briefing. So dad fetch her from Marsiling and drove us to school, but ended up I'm the only person who alight from the car. I told couple of my friends that my parents are coming but I showed up alone. Pretty sad.
What's more saddening, I'm not bunk in with Caroline. She's with Lina and two other clarinetists. I feel sad, duh? But I learn to accept to be with others. But, I don't really know if things can work out with Se Shuang & Pauline. Liyana should be alright huh? Maybe I shall appeal for a room exchange not because I wanna be with my goodfriends but, it's better to be with my section, like they said! I've got planned things to do with them. Haiz, nevermind.
I suddenly feel scared. I don't know why.
I wanna get tomorrow over & done with fast and quick. Okay what the hell? Well, tomorrow is my last day having religious classes, happy or whaaaaaaaaat?
Anyway,
Apparently Luqqyman told me many things bout girls not appreciating guys love or something. Here, let me show you what he said. Clearly copied from some page.
Luqqyman: Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
My reply: So, make sure the guys are serious in relationships ah. its not for us actually, it's for you guys.
Luqqyman: If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
My reply: Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
Luqqyman: If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.
My reply: It applies to the guys also. what? are you trying to say that only girls reject guys by saying this and that? nono, guys are actually the same thing alright.
I know my english; hay wire!
I don't care, at that point.
Type that and watch the documentary and I assure you, you will be scared to go to school. Seriously, it's very very saddening to see students get shot by 2 students. Sick minds. Not use elaborating here. Watch in at youtube. Cool, heartbreaking, sad & scary.
Somehow, this makes me feel very scared to go Perth you know. I don't know why. I don't wanna die. Oh my gosd. Thanks to Afee for giving me the link. Scary lah.
Mom was suppose to go for the briefing. So dad fetch her from Marsiling and drove us to school, but ended up I'm the only person who alight from the car. I told couple of my friends that my parents are coming but I showed up alone. Pretty sad.
What's more saddening, I'm not bunk in with Caroline. She's with Lina and two other clarinetists. I feel sad, duh? But I learn to accept to be with others. But, I don't really know if things can work out with Se Shuang & Pauline. Liyana should be alright huh? Maybe I shall appeal for a room exchange not because I wanna be with my goodfriends but, it's better to be with my section, like they said! I've got planned things to do with them. Haiz, nevermind.
I suddenly feel scared. I don't know why.
I wanna get tomorrow over & done with fast and quick. Okay what the hell? Well, tomorrow is my last day having religious classes, happy or whaaaaaaaaat?
Anyway,
Apparently Luqqyman told me many things bout girls not appreciating guys love or something. Here, let me show you what he said. Clearly copied from some page.
Luqqyman: Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
My reply: So, make sure the guys are serious in relationships ah. its not for us actually, it's for you guys.
Luqqyman: If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
My reply: Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
Luqqyman: If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.
My reply: It applies to the guys also. what? are you trying to say that only girls reject guys by saying this and that? nono, guys are actually the same thing alright.
I know my english; hay wire!
I don't care, at that point.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Okay, after spending few hours cracking my brains,
I've decided and have make a vow to keep my hair long till it somehow reaches my tummy.
Then I shall either curl the bottom or just keep it natural. Yeah.
But you know me, once I feel my hair is in no shape or it's long,
I will just hand it over to the salon. But seriously, I wanna keep it long!
So, from today onwards, I shall not cut my hair!
Ah, gonna start the year next year with no shape hair lorh.
Taik.
And yes, I've changed the layout of this blog. Initially it was Feeza's layout.
She wanted to throw this into the trash but then, she gave it to me since I like it.
So, got it from her and revamped it.
Yeah, I like it. (:
Tomorrow's briefing. Can't wait for the Packing list! haha (:
& Muhd Nabil Yuza Bin Othman is getting on my nerves maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan.
Wah, angry liao. Seriously lorh. Bodoh nyer Muthusammy. sick in the brain.
I'm totally in love with the Chinese Drama " By My Side " & the main song " Wo de Jia ".
Ah, I've cried upteen times watching the drama & plus the song played by the guitar & piano, made me cry even more! Very sad.
Emo already. hahahahahaha.
Nadiah was telling me about how she shouted at the Bus Driver for not opening the door even after she pressed the bell. Daring huh. HAHA. I can imagine her expression, filled with anger. I bet if I'm there, we would burst into laughters. Haha, sorry Nad for not answering your call in the morning. I wasn't feeling that well. Sorry.
I've decided and have make a vow to keep my hair long till it somehow reaches my tummy.
Then I shall either curl the bottom or just keep it natural. Yeah.
But you know me, once I feel my hair is in no shape or it's long,
I will just hand it over to the salon. But seriously, I wanna keep it long!
So, from today onwards, I shall not cut my hair!
Ah, gonna start the year next year with no shape hair lorh.
Taik.
And yes, I've changed the layout of this blog. Initially it was Feeza's layout.
She wanted to throw this into the trash but then, she gave it to me since I like it.
So, got it from her and revamped it.
Yeah, I like it. (:
Tomorrow's briefing. Can't wait for the Packing list! haha (:
& Muhd Nabil Yuza Bin Othman is getting on my nerves maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan.
Wah, angry liao. Seriously lorh. Bodoh nyer Muthusammy. sick in the brain.
I'm totally in love with the Chinese Drama " By My Side " & the main song " Wo de Jia ".
Ah, I've cried upteen times watching the drama & plus the song played by the guitar & piano, made me cry even more! Very sad.
Emo already. hahahahahaha.
Nadiah was telling me about how she shouted at the Bus Driver for not opening the door even after she pressed the bell. Daring huh. HAHA. I can imagine her expression, filled with anger. I bet if I'm there, we would burst into laughters. Haha, sorry Nad for not answering your call in the morning. I wasn't feeling that well. Sorry.
Slept long enough, woke up with headache.
Was peacefully asleep when my brother woke me up asking me if I've seen his guitar effects. Irritating! Checked the time, almost 2pm. Maaan, I don't feel like a lady waking up so late. Clearly I've missed my breakfast. So got up & wash up. Lunch served.
How nice.
Danial, the band mate dreamt of me. Apparently, I've got a twin sister which is a little bit darker than me. From what he told me, both of us were wearing my class t-shirt and the three of us was up in the lorry doing something. Scary actually. How nice? Not nice!
Friendster sucks, again.
I can't log in. I can't even get into the log-in page.
Ah, I feel excited.
Flying off to Perth, Western Australia in 16 days time! I guess. I hope mother can attend tomorrow's briefing so that I will get the packing list and such tomorrow and shopping can start! Ah, I can't wait. And thanks to Brother & Granny for giving me some cash to spend at Perth (:
Holiday Assignment.
Haven't touch it since the last time I touched it. I can't say that I'm busy anymore cause there's lesser things to do since I won't be going to Ngee Ann from now. I don't know. This reminds me, I've got to study for my religious class End Year Exams, which will be held this Sunday. Ah, how the hell am I suppose to write Arab and Jawi. Saay it, I'm dead.
Haven't been meeting dearest Fee since the holidays started. Ah, I miss her truckloads. Babe, I'm sure getting you something for your birthday present while I'm at Perth alright! <3
I've been tuning to Ungu- Tercipta Untukku.
Overall, the song doesn't explains why I'm in such state but the feeling and the song itself makes me feel very sad. Like said in my previous entries, I've been feeling low. But yeah, I'm sure I'm strong enough to put all this behind and focus on my priority which is, BAND. For now.
I mean, I'm strong enough to love Arif for almost 20 months, sure I can be even stronger to put all these emotions and love behind for now. Alright.
Oh yeah, where's Arif?
It's been like a month since I've last heard from him.
Hmms.
Was peacefully asleep when my brother woke me up asking me if I've seen his guitar effects. Irritating! Checked the time, almost 2pm. Maaan, I don't feel like a lady waking up so late. Clearly I've missed my breakfast. So got up & wash up. Lunch served.
How nice.
Danial, the band mate dreamt of me. Apparently, I've got a twin sister which is a little bit darker than me. From what he told me, both of us were wearing my class t-shirt and the three of us was up in the lorry doing something. Scary actually. How nice? Not nice!
Friendster sucks, again.
I can't log in. I can't even get into the log-in page.
Ah, I feel excited.
Flying off to Perth, Western Australia in 16 days time! I guess. I hope mother can attend tomorrow's briefing so that I will get the packing list and such tomorrow and shopping can start! Ah, I can't wait. And thanks to Brother & Granny for giving me some cash to spend at Perth (:
Holiday Assignment.
Haven't touch it since the last time I touched it. I can't say that I'm busy anymore cause there's lesser things to do since I won't be going to Ngee Ann from now. I don't know. This reminds me, I've got to study for my religious class End Year Exams, which will be held this Sunday. Ah, how the hell am I suppose to write Arab and Jawi. Saay it, I'm dead.
Haven't been meeting dearest Fee since the holidays started. Ah, I miss her truckloads. Babe, I'm sure getting you something for your birthday present while I'm at Perth alright! <3
I've been tuning to Ungu- Tercipta Untukku.
Overall, the song doesn't explains why I'm in such state but the feeling and the song itself makes me feel very sad. Like said in my previous entries, I've been feeling low. But yeah, I'm sure I'm strong enough to put all this behind and focus on my priority which is, BAND. For now.
I mean, I'm strong enough to love Arif for almost 20 months, sure I can be even stronger to put all these emotions and love behind for now. Alright.
Oh yeah, where's Arif?
It's been like a month since I've last heard from him.
Hmms.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
ABC;
Affection ( feeling )
Behaviour ( action )
Cognition ( thinking )
If ABC isn't present in yourself, don't call yourself a band member. Be it a beginner, primary school player, secondary school player, Polytechnic or even Professional.
" We might not be a professional but our mindset is stronger than your stupid thinking "
- Tan Si yuan
I have to say that his words is a little bit insulting but it was straight to the point. Our objective for coming is to help, learn & experience. Clearly our presence has been a huge disturbances to the group. I don't know why. I apologise & on my friends behalf for turning up late for both practice. 1st practice was because we had our own band practice at school which ended around 6pm. Clearly we can't reach by 6.30 pm right? Second practice was our own fault, dilly-Delly.
Well I'm sure not being punctual isn't the only matter.
But still, we, as an outsider and not a band member from your school tried our best to make ourselves free so that we could turn up. We can choose not to go but this benefits both parties don't you think so? Well, I do.
Nevertheless, both practices have been fine. Thank you.
And thanks to those who don't mind us joining, like said.
15 year old secondary school student. Ya, so what?
No misspelling! Awesome!
Alright.
Suppose to meet Yuza today for a movie, right?
But apparently mother said she asked me to tag along to the mosque.
Alright, I cancelled the plans. But heck, I overslept. So, woke up late.
Both cancelled. Maybe next week eh Yuza?
Affection ( feeling )
Behaviour ( action )
Cognition ( thinking )
If ABC isn't present in yourself, don't call yourself a band member. Be it a beginner, primary school player, secondary school player, Polytechnic or even Professional.
" We might not be a professional but our mindset is stronger than your stupid thinking "
- Tan Si yuan
I have to say that his words is a little bit insulting but it was straight to the point. Our objective for coming is to help, learn & experience. Clearly our presence has been a huge disturbances to the group. I don't know why. I apologise & on my friends behalf for turning up late for both practice. 1st practice was because we had our own band practice at school which ended around 6pm. Clearly we can't reach by 6.30 pm right? Second practice was our own fault, dilly-Delly.
Well I'm sure not being punctual isn't the only matter.
But still, we, as an outsider and not a band member from your school tried our best to make ourselves free so that we could turn up. We can choose not to go but this benefits both parties don't you think so? Well, I do.
Nevertheless, both practices have been fine. Thank you.
And thanks to those who don't mind us joining, like said.
15 year old secondary school student. Ya, so what?
No misspelling! Awesome!
Alright.
Suppose to meet Yuza today for a movie, right?
But apparently mother said she asked me to tag along to the mosque.
Alright, I cancelled the plans. But heck, I overslept. So, woke up late.
Both cancelled. Maybe next week eh Yuza?
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Emotionally disturbed.
Never LOL, with me anymore.
Alright, woke up early in the morning to pay for my Perth Trip. Thanks to Mother for giving away $476 just like that. After that, drove to Cwp and bought some food. Drove to Fuchun Primary, drop off my sister and drove to Granny's place.
Chillax there before heading home.
Yes, I'm feeling low. Whatever.
I've covered Hot N Cold acoustic but I later found out that the chords I've memorised isn't that nice to these chords I've found on the net. So, gonna restart the song with new fresh nicer chords. And, I'm doing " I miss you like crazy " By Moffats too. So yeah, hope guitaring will strum my feelings away.
:"(
Never LOL, with me anymore.
Alright, woke up early in the morning to pay for my Perth Trip. Thanks to Mother for giving away $476 just like that. After that, drove to Cwp and bought some food. Drove to Fuchun Primary, drop off my sister and drove to Granny's place.
Chillax there before heading home.
Yes, I'm feeling low. Whatever.
I've covered Hot N Cold acoustic but I later found out that the chords I've memorised isn't that nice to these chords I've found on the net. So, gonna restart the song with new fresh nicer chords. And, I'm doing " I miss you like crazy " By Moffats too. So yeah, hope guitaring will strum my feelings away.
:"(
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I regret. I want to rewind the time. I want to go back to December 2008.
I regret, I regret, I regret alot.
Now, I lost.
I lost him long time ago. Shouldn't feel at lost, but i do.
Horrible feeling. I feel like tearing up. But no point. Like he said.
Nobody understands me. No point blogging about this.
Irah, you're just stupid. December was a wonderful month last year yet you fucking didn't treat it right. Now, you've been feeling super miserable. Still! Stupid, no brains. Now, there's nothing you can do! Nothing! too bad for you, he have got no feelings for you at all. You saw how he penetrate right through you. Doesn't treat you like last time. Feel at lost right?
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
REGRET!! :'(
I regret, I regret, I regret alot.
Now, I lost.
I lost him long time ago. Shouldn't feel at lost, but i do.
Horrible feeling. I feel like tearing up. But no point. Like he said.
Nobody understands me. No point blogging about this.
Irah, you're just stupid. December was a wonderful month last year yet you fucking didn't treat it right. Now, you've been feeling super miserable. Still! Stupid, no brains. Now, there's nothing you can do! Nothing! too bad for you, he have got no feelings for you at all. You saw how he penetrate right through you. Doesn't treat you like last time. Feel at lost right?
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
STUPID IRAH.
REGRET!! :'(
Monday, November 10, 2008
Thunder Feeza & Feeza without the F tagged me to do this.
Rules & Regulations :
#01; - Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
#02; - People who get tagged need to write a post of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
#03; - At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
#04; - No tags back!
#01; - I own this disgusting pillow since I was about 6.
#02; - I hate mess.
#03; - I love organised-mess.
#04; - I hate RnB, hiphop
#05; - But I love T.I
#06; - Good from far. Far from good.
#07; - I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder; OCD. I think so
#08; - I'm Irah.
#09; - I'm malay and not chinese.
#10; - I'm a girl.
Ten peeps that are tagged :D
01 ; Alyssha
02 ; Caroline
03 ; Nadiah
04 ; Nathasha
05 ; Mira Nadzirah
06 ; Rabiatul
07 ; MARIS!
08 ; Faezah
09 ; You
10 ; You.
I don't think these people would actually want to do this " game " lorh. But nevermind. haha.
Rules & Regulations :
#01; - Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
#02; - People who get tagged need to write a post of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
#03; - At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
#04; - No tags back!
#01; - I own this disgusting pillow since I was about 6.
#02; - I hate mess.
#03; - I love organised-mess.
#04; - I hate RnB, hiphop
#05; - But I love T.I
#06; - Good from far. Far from good.
#07; - I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder; OCD. I think so
#08; - I'm Irah.
#09; - I'm malay and not chinese.
#10; - I'm a girl.
Ten peeps that are tagged :D
01 ; Alyssha
02 ; Caroline
03 ; Nadiah
04 ; Nathasha
05 ; Mira Nadzirah
06 ; Rabiatul
07 ; MARIS!
08 ; Faezah
09 ; You
10 ; You.
I don't think these people would actually want to do this " game " lorh. But nevermind. haha.
TANGLIN SCHOOL;
A SCHOOL FOR STUDENT WITH SPECIAL NEEDS.
Firstly, I did project as much as I could for my solo just now. But sadly, Rabiatul said she heard nothing from my clarinet. So, it was Azri's Trumpet & Belvis's Trombone solo. Mr Sim said " it's like that lah (: " As I stepped forward for the solo, my legs couldn't stop shaking! I tried to stop but I couldn't. It felt as though I was about to fall flat on the ground. Stupid nervousness. But when the solo ended, I was shocked. I find that the solo is quite short. haha. It's over. Wait, there's Perth.
Secondly, students there were awesome. These kind of people are actually THE best audience we ever had alright. They were having fun which we can tell by their vigorous movements and singings of the YMCA part and L-O-V-E Chorus. I enjoyed myself, very much. I kept on smiling when I looked into the audience. Thanks Tangling people!
Lastly, friendly people man! This guy shook hands with a couple of my friends and I twice, but not Caroline's. HAH, there she goes getting all so emo and sad. Okay, I blamed no one but myself for waking up late. So, Father drove me to school. Rushed up to the music room and got my hair sprayed metallic black, leaving many black spots and lines on my white long sleeves =.=
Got scolded many times by Caroline and my other members for practicing still in the bus when all I need it rest rest rest! I didn't had my breakfast so, imagine my state at that point of time. Well, stupid bus driver drove pass 2 macdonalds! =.= They took my clarinet away and asked me to sleep. I couldn't. My tummy grumbled profusely, begging for atleast a drink & my head spins.
So, performance was all great. Bus-ed back to school. Got the superb chocolate bar from Tanglin School. Went home after buying Bubble Tea with Si Yuan.
Stupid school sent another dental appointment to my home. Tomorrow. Fuck, I wanna skip.
And yes, there Silas goes again.
Saturday, November 08, 2008
DECEMBER, REMEMBER?I'm super duper zuper cuper fuper muper guper ruper huper juper kuper tuper wuper lazy to update but here I am.
I'm physically and mentally exhausted. Have been going back to school almost everyday for Band Practice which is from 8am to 6 pm, sectionals in the morning right to the afternoon. What's more tiring, travel to Ngee Ann Poly after band Practice at Wgs. So Ngee Ann Band Practice is from 6.30pm to 9.30pm. Yes, killer. This is just the beginning.
I'll be having my oral test tomorrow and hell, I've yet memorize the those surahs I have to recite tomorrow morning! Gah. I need time. Every part of my body is aching and my brains is slowing down. K fake ah. But maaan, this doesn't seem like holidays at all! In fact, this two months will be the most tiring months. tsk.
Hey, everyone agrees with me. HAHAHHAHAHAHHAa. what the hell.
Okay, back on track.
I've been having bad dreams. Recently was plane crash. My friends was involved. I couldn't recall who I saw dead or fighting for air and stuff. All I know, I woke up crying. Paranoid, those stories I've heard about plane crashes. Damn, I'm flying off to Australia end of this month seh. Alaaamaaak.
Hariz Hairuddin told me something that made me laugh the shit out of myself. Yeah, it's been ages since Hariz and I got together and crap hell alot huh. I miss you, friend! haha (:
Apparently getting into 3N2 have made me go a distance away from my old mates. I miss Hariz, Shahrul, NAZRI, Nathasha, Adilla, Ruby and all those friends. Through thick and thins we survived. I miss 1N1 2N1.
So yeah today, went over to Caroline's house and waited for her to get dressed before meeting the rest at Boots And Shoes. Alright, bought lunch and bus-ed to Ngee Ann. over an hour late.
Bumped into the gorgeous Maris! Maaan, could hardly recognize her. Pretty, long time no see ah. Hen Mei sia. Okay, band practice was alright. First song was holy crap. 5 sharps, scares me alot. The rest was fun! I love the band practice.
5.30pm bus-ed back to Woodlands and had dinner at Long John Silver. Went home after watching Azri playing this shooting game at Arcade. Walked home with Caroline and realised that there's this three guys walking behind us. Irritating, so decided to let them walk first. They went up the " hill ". Bid goodbye to Caroline and walked alone. Suddenly, those freaks catch up with me and apparently this guy asked for my number. HAHAHAHAHAH. What else, I gave a direct NO. Bleargh, no life man these kids.
Yesterday night, had the most awkward conversation with Yuzaa thru sms ah. He tried to make me understand something he's trying to tell me but ha, I don't wanna understand. Act stupid lorh.
Girl look, what's past is past. I know I'm too much and I apologize alright. I'm sorry. But hey, it's not like I'm scared or what. It's only that I'm admitting my mistakes. Done.
Alright.
I started the conversation with S, we talked just a little bit and he went off just like that. Reason, he wanna watch Manu loose to Arsenal. Clearly I'm nothing to him already. Past, he would actually give up his Liverpool just to MSN with me. I know, what past is past. No time talking about it, regretting stuff and ya da ya da. But again and again and again I say, I miss December, I miss Silas. :'(
I was about to ask something, wanting to know what's bothering him last few weeks but, never mind. Nadiah's right. I'm just humiliating myself. I'm just loosing face. I'm just too weak and not strong. What the hell am I crapping. Hey, I'm crapping truths. WTH? Never mind. Bumping to the Ex- boyfriends is even worse. I feel very very very guilty. I don't know why.
And Arif, although I've not been talking about him, not sms-ing him, not thinking much about him, I'm still waiting lah. Weird, I know. But there's the feeling of wanting him although we will never ever make it. I know he used to give me hell shit of high hopes, I know, those are just some tests from him. Those heartbreaks from him, care & concern. I'm thankful to receive it from the one I truly admire, I truly love. Rather than now, there's not a single news about him.
I'm flying off on the 30th, shall send Arif " Happy 20th month of Friendship (: "
But the fact is that, it's 20th months of me waiting. so it wouldn't be awkward. :'(
" Reefyrah, what a shit ", Arif might say.
Everything just seems so wrong.
Friday, November 07, 2008
Jealousy.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH.
I DON'T CARE A SINGLE BIT.
Boo, youu.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH.
I DON'T CARE A SINGLE BIT.
Boo, youu.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
You know, I agree with Nathasha on what she have stated in her entry;
Just say you're jealous. End of story. FULLSTOP.
You go girl. haha. Nothing to do with me but I agree to that.
Okay, I was peacefully asleep yesterday night when I received a text message from my bestfriend which I don't think I'm allowed to regard as one anymore, maybe.
I only read that text message when I woke up the next morning. I thought I'm about to get punk'd by this person and the old lame games. But no, it was something that pissed the hell out of me. This person was pissed too. Fuck care, you're nothing.
Listen, what you're going through right now;
I'VE BEEN THERE AND DONE THAT.
So yeah, stop with those acts you have. It won't work on me. You don't know me yet so don't let me show you who I am cause I'll be honest, I can be nasty. No worries, I'll keep my words.
To whoever these things may concern. Fuck you. HA.
Enough of this.
SICK IN THE BRAINS.
I'm flying off to Perth, Western Australia this 30Th November. Happy, delighted, looking forward to it, the fun prior to the trip, those misses of goodfriends and bestfriends. I can't wait to shop for the Perth Trip. So many things to do! So little time. Music wise, not there yet. Worried, worried sick.
Intensive Band practices started. 8 am to 6pm. Let's die together. Nah, don't. Actually, this process is the most enjoyable and most unforgettable. Something happened yesterday during combined and I'm not gonna say anything cause I'm absolutely sure that my section mates will spill the beans for me, like they did yesterday. AHAH, never mind, I love you guys!
On a different topic, December have always been the pain-in-my-ass-month of every year. Well, things will slowly gets worse a month before December. I don't know why but Nadiah knows it well. What happened last year should not repeat this year. November & December, the months to fuck people upside down. Seriously.
Next, knowing I'm gonna be a big senior in school, of course with my friends of the same level, I don't really care about fame and whatever shit in school. I rather concentrate more on academics. Hell, I want to be in Secondary 5. Which implies the same thing as, ABLE TO SIT FOR O LEVEL. I have to sit for O level. This, pressurize me. Alot.
I don't know where I'm going in this entry. Never mind.
Just say you're jealous. End of story. FULLSTOP.
You go girl. haha. Nothing to do with me but I agree to that.
Okay, I was peacefully asleep yesterday night when I received a text message from my bestfriend which I don't think I'm allowed to regard as one anymore, maybe.
I only read that text message when I woke up the next morning. I thought I'm about to get punk'd by this person and the old lame games. But no, it was something that pissed the hell out of me. This person was pissed too. Fuck care, you're nothing.
Listen, what you're going through right now;
I'VE BEEN THERE AND DONE THAT.
To whoever these things may concern. Fuck you. HA.
Enough of this.
SICK IN THE BRAINS.
I'm flying off to Perth, Western Australia this 30Th November. Happy, delighted, looking forward to it, the fun prior to the trip, those misses of goodfriends and bestfriends. I can't wait to shop for the Perth Trip. So many things to do! So little time. Music wise, not there yet. Worried, worried sick.
Intensive Band practices started. 8 am to 6pm. Let's die together. Nah, don't. Actually, this process is the most enjoyable and most unforgettable. Something happened yesterday during combined and I'm not gonna say anything cause I'm absolutely sure that my section mates will spill the beans for me, like they did yesterday. AHAH, never mind, I love you guys!
On a different topic, December have always been the pain-in-my-ass-month of every year. Well, things will slowly gets worse a month before December. I don't know why but Nadiah knows it well. What happened last year should not repeat this year. November & December, the months to fuck people upside down. Seriously.
Next, knowing I'm gonna be a big senior in school, of course with my friends of the same level, I don't really care about fame and whatever shit in school. I rather concentrate more on academics. Hell, I want to be in Secondary 5. Which implies the same thing as, ABLE TO SIT FOR O LEVEL. I have to sit for O level. This, pressurize me. Alot.
I don't know where I'm going in this entry. Never mind.
Labels: Told you you shouldnt be so nice to me. tsk